Will I die for anyone? I'd like to say YES, I'd like to be a hero. But I like this life too much; inside, my heart longs for heaven, but my earthly body wants to stay here.

How much do I want to be in the Kingdom of God? Not very much, it sometimes seems. And yet I can't seem to discern which of my fears are godly and which are not. For instance, I don't want to leave my friends who aren't Christian to face life alone, I want to make sure I will see them in heaven. Is that love for them or pure arrogance in thinking they need me?

Here's another example, one which has bothered me lately. I look forward to the time when my girlfriend and I are married and have children. At that time, what would I do if I was placed in a position to sacrifice my life in order to rescue hers? If I did lose my life and she lived, what would that mean? Would I have selflessly sacrificed my life to save her, or would I have selfishly denied her early entry into heaven, leaving her to look after our children alone? What is the heart of God in that situation?

All of this impresses upon me the importance of knowing our God. In that kind of situation, there will not be time to sit down and have a good think about things. I will simply have to act. Through reading the Bible, through praying and through spending time every day alone with God, we can come to know the heart of God, in order that our first reactions in stressful situations will be … Godlike.

Vaughn Jordan.